Covid-10

 

Ok so I know that everyone is aware of covid-19 pandemic....but I'm here to give you my view on how things are. As you may or may not know I am in nursing facility I've been here for six months I think.... Time kind of runs together when you're in a place like this..... You tend to forget the date, the day of the week, and occasionally even the month you're in.... So I was only supposed to be in here a couple of months but the covid hit everything went on lockdown. The lockdown I'm sure affected those of you in what I call the real world, which is everywhere but where I am.

So this is how it has been for me.... We are on complete lockdown only employees are able to come in and out... I've only seen one loved one.... Once, since I've been here. And that was only outside my window..... So still no hugs, kisses nothing I can only see you I can't touch you. So I know this is difficult on everyone I really do but I want you to know how I and others in a home such as this feels.

Even though there are people here that don't or can't comprehend that there is a pandemic going, they do realize that something is going on... People can't go smoke, people that are used to coming out of their rooms suddenly can't leave their rooms... They may not know what's going on in the real world but they know something up.

For me I'm used to not going out but what gets too me is the not seeing my friends and family.... I was supposed to already be out of here and in a place with my friend. I find it really hard to not be lonely.... Yes there are people to talk to the CNAs, the nurses, and the other people that work here.... Sure I talk to them but that is just a few minutes out of the day they have other people to care for or see, that they can't stay with me and play cards or a game or a conversation.. occasionally a certain rooster will show up and we will chat but that is also far and few between.... And I hope you all are aware that when I say rooster I do actually mean a person. I'm not sure if I can give you an accurate account of what I feel but I think my next blog will go I into more of how I deal with things.

I'll leave you here for now but I plan on getting back to you real soon.