How do you disengage?

So how do you disengage from everything? When everything starts to get to you..... When things start getting on your nerves for no apparent reason. When every little sound just rides your nerves.... How do you get away from it? Being in a nursing home I find I have to 'get away' pretty often... But of course I can't go to the park...I can't go to the river...I can't sit under a tree and read... But what I can do is put my earbuds in close my eyes and listen to music, or book on tape which I have found you tube is very useful for that....I also have found a love for real life crimes.... I listen to Murder Mystery Makeup Monday w/ Bailey Sarian... If you like Mystery murder makeup or all three check her out on you tube. Or I'll binge on videos from Slapped Ham they do a variety of ghost alien anything scary.... That's just some of my go to's when I find I can no longer take the outside sounds.... The multiple TV's the gentleman with his coughing the lady that says hello over and over again or the rustling of paper or plastic. I can go on and on but you get my point.... We all need our down time I don't care if you are like me and have no choice over where you are or the business man, the mother, the teenager. We all need to disengage every once in a while.... So be kind and give everyone some time to themselves and take some time for you.... Whatever you need to do to get away... Each of us has a different way.... Find yours and take it..... Sorry for everything written to one side I couldn't get it center it.....

Covid-10

 

Ok so I know that everyone is aware of covid-19 pandemic....but I'm here to give you my view on how things are. As you may or may not know I am in nursing facility I've been here for six months I think.... Time kind of runs together when you're in a place like this..... You tend to forget the date, the day of the week, and occasionally even the month you're in.... So I was only supposed to be in here a couple of months but the covid hit everything went on lockdown. The lockdown I'm sure affected those of you in what I call the real world, which is everywhere but where I am.

So this is how it has been for me.... We are on complete lockdown only employees are able to come in and out... I've only seen one loved one.... Once, since I've been here. And that was only outside my window..... So still no hugs, kisses nothing I can only see you I can't touch you. So I know this is difficult on everyone I really do but I want you to know how I and others in a home such as this feels.

Even though there are people here that don't or can't comprehend that there is a pandemic going, they do realize that something is going on... People can't go smoke, people that are used to coming out of their rooms suddenly can't leave their rooms... They may not know what's going on in the real world but they know something up.

For me I'm used to not going out but what gets too me is the not seeing my friends and family.... I was supposed to already be out of here and in a place with my friend. I find it really hard to not be lonely.... Yes there are people to talk to the CNAs, the nurses, and the other people that work here.... Sure I talk to them but that is just a few minutes out of the day they have other people to care for or see, that they can't stay with me and play cards or a game or a conversation.. occasionally a certain rooster will show up and we will chat but that is also far and few between.... And I hope you all are aware that when I say rooster I do actually mean a person. I'm not sure if I can give you an accurate account of what I feel but I think my next blog will go I into more of how I deal with things.

I'll leave you here for now but I plan on getting back to you real soon.