MERRY CHRISTMAS

I just want to wish each and everyone of you a very Merry Christmas..  My wish for you is that you are surrounded by the ones you love be it friends or family, hopefully both. I hope that you have a day filled with good food, fun games, a leisurely nap, more food and lots of love.  Being in here I have come to realize that sometimes you don't know that your missing something till it shows up unexpectedly at your door. So treasure these times that you have with your loved ones and at some point in the day take a step back and just look on at your loved ones and take a mental picture so that you can remember this moment later on in the year when you need to tap into that happy place, you will have this to look back on and remember the joy and love that you felt today.  

CONSIDERATION

I just wanted to touch on something here.  If your in a situation where you have to share an intimate space with a stranger, please have consideration for others in the room.  Currently I am sharing a room with a woman who leaves her tv on when she leaves the room and when she sleeps, has her phone on speaker when she makes her thousand calls a day/night, and has the volume up when she plays her games. There is a certain amount of consideration when in this type of situation.  Example: when your roommate is having a conversation with another person that enters the room do not but into that conversation unless invited to,especially if said conversation is done behind a closed curtain.
I try my best to be thoughtful of my roommate,  I'm not here saying that I am the best roommate.  I know that I have my faults, and maybe I'm being a bit harsh and unreasonable but when you spend 24/7 in a small room with someone little things tend to get on your nerves. Those of you that have been in my situation know EXACTLY what I mean.
So please turn your tv off, and when you have them on keep them at a reasonable volume. I may not want to watch what your watching and if I do then hey we will have surround sound going on.  When your on the phone trust me no one wants to hear your conversation with Aunt Betty, or your games with the annoying sounds and the even louder pop up ads.
Just be thoughtful and considerate of others around you, not just your roommate but everyone you come across in this thing we call life. We are all in this together!

LIES

There is something that I just can't grasp the understanding of and that is LIES! Why is it that people Lie? I've never been able to understand it. When I was a kid, of course I lied, who hasn't. Not know then that if I had just told the truth in the first place, I would have been much better off.  When you tell a lie the truth ALWAYS comes out and you would be much better off just telling the truth in the first place. When you lie you end up getting into more trouble when the truth comes out.  Better to just get into trouble without the lie tagged onto it, and sometimes when you tell the truth you don't even get in trouble for what you did, but if you lie you will end up in trouble for just lying.
As you grow up you should learn that important lesson, some people do and unfortunately some don't. I think it is sad when a so called adult lies.  I've recently witnessed someone flat out lying. A grown woman lying about people and those lies could potentially cause someone to lose their job.  It makes me wonder how someone could live with themselves knowing that the lie they told caused a good hard working person to lose their job. I've also witnessed people lying just to be lying.  It doesn't matter what or who you lie about because in the long run these lies will come back and bite you in the ass.
So to anyone who feels the need to lie about something, remember the old saying Karma is a Bitch.  So think about what you are about to say and if its a lie just keep your mouth shut.

LONELY TIME OF YEAR

I am feeling really lonely this year.  I know if I was not in this situation that this wouldn't even be an issue.  I've sat here and thought about it. Last year I was in the hospital and yes it was lonely but I was dealing with a lot.  This year I'm still dealing but I've had time to shall we say deal with some of it.  It seems that I have more time to think about what I could be doing or what my loved ones are doing without me.  Those small traditions that have been made over the years and the new ones that could have been made.  I miss the decorations, this time of year everyone has beautiful decorations up, the lights, the trees with decorations.  I find that I am missing all those things. 

So in saying all this I'd like to remind everyone, make time for those you love, friends and family, those that are not able to get out and about. Put some decorations up, lights, something to help them enjoy the holiday season. It may just be a  blip in time for you but it could mean the world to them.

NEGATIVITY

I understand having a bad day, everyone has bad days, but to always be in a bad mood, I just cant understand that.  I'd like to talk about a particular person I've come across. This lady, the first time I met her she came into my room and didn't speak, and those of you that know me know that I'm more positive than negative or at least I try to be.  So when she came in I said 'hello, how are you?' and I got a very clipped 'hi'.  I thought 'oh she is having a bad day', but I have now seen her many times and it's the same thing each time, no smiles, no happiness at all.  I feel sorry for her, she doesn't seem happy in her job and this is one job that you really need to like what you do. I will say that her being the way she is does invoke certain feelings in others (me).  It makes me feel like everything is my fault, I'm sorry I've had to go to the bathroom and caused you to have to come to my room, and to ask for anything extra it's like I've asked her to go to the moon and back.

My mother told me once when I was young and having trouble with a teacher that I was convinced hated me, that I just needed to be nice to him and always speak when I saw him. I took my mother's advice and eventually he changed his attitude towards me. I took my mother's advice again with the person I've been speaking about and I'd like to say that mom's advice always works.  Remember if you see someone that looks like they are having a bad day, week, month, year, all you can do is be nice and maybe just maybe your smile or kind word will be exactly what they need.

LAUGHTER REALLY IS CONTAGIOUS

So for days now I've been hearing the lady across the hall laughing, I mean a deep belly laugh.  She has been doing this every morning for a while so I finally asked someone what it was that made her laugh like that.  I got the strangest response, she likes to watch scary movies and finds them funny.  She has a great laugh and it always makes me smile, and I've heard others start laughing when they hear her.  I love it! It just goes to show you how much laughter can do for not only you but for the people around you.  I would love to go sit with her in her room and just enjoy seeing what makes her laugh.  More than likely there would be two women just sitting there laughing the morning away.  You cant be unhappy while your laughing!

SHOULD I?

When your told that you should write, blog about your experiences, write about your life, your childhood, write fiction, for me its difficult to start. Where do you begin, how do you know what to write, will people be interested?  If I blog it would be me telling about this last year and my experiences in the hospital and rehab facility.  Do people even want to read about that cause it seems to me that I would just be complaining and really does anyone want to read that? My childhood was it really so interesting that people would want to read about it? And fiction I really wouldn't know where to start with that one.  I do know this that when I was young I wanted to grow up to be a writer.  So maybe just maybe this is something that I should really think about....


This entry here is one that I wrote prior to developing this blog.  I wanted to know if I was capable of actually writing something.  As you can see I have chosen to blog and after I made my first entry and previewed it all I could do was smile and think to myself  'Yep I think I might be able to do this'!

JUST A BRIEF INTRODUCTION

Hello there! My name is Chairty, I'm 43, single, no kids, over weight, bad knees, asthma, not to mention other health issues. On November 15, 2015 my life as I knew it changed.  What I thought was just another trip to the emergency room for a cold that was wreaking havoc on my breathing, something that I've done many times before, but this time was definitely different, this time it changed my life considerably.  I really don't remember what happened, but this I do know, I was told that I had had too much carbon dioxide in my system. I was put into a coma, on a vent and in the ICU.  I stayed in the hospital for 2 months, was taken  off the vent and a trach put in.  During this time I developed foot drop (foot drop stems from weakness or paralysis of the muscles that lift the foot) in my right foot and also gout in my right ankle.  I was in extreme pain and couldn't stand.  I was transferred in January 2016 to a rehab facility and well I'm still here.  I have amazing friends and family who visit me as much as they can.  So this blog is about my life, my thoughts, my journey, and really just about anything I feel like talking about. I hope you enjoy!

Me at the beginning of this journey! I'm not sure when or who took this picture, I only found it on my phone by accident a few months ago.

And this is me now in my room trying to rock this horrid hospital gown...

I added these days after i actually wrote the blog entry only because I figured out, quite by accident, how to get my pictures from my phone to my computer...😊